RS I loved the post. Loved the story about the party. Gotta know who xxx is.
Friday, dinner at Jibarra. Time at the Rockford with N and his friends (also friends of mine.) Late night at the Dirty. People watching. People watching me. Too fun. Big mouthed troll was no where to be seen.
Saturday - therapy and the NC State Fair. Cows, rides, people who ride the short bus, gross fattening food but fun.
Sunday - the wedding of M from work. As good a time as I could have 1> without a date and 2> at that particular wedding. I have to say I found it particularly hard to sit through the ceremony. Hard not to think about him. Hard not to miss him.
Here's my tally for man activity:
- Three emails on late Friday from the 29 year old from Manhattan (who I met at Disney)
- Two phone calls from the drummer in LA.
- Dinner and one long good night kiss from N. the ex
- 7 texts from N. the ex
- 1 phone call from N tonite
- 1 long phone message and 1 MySpace message from the Virginia Lawyer ex.
- 1 promise of a date sometime in the next few weeks (when I am not booked) from a certain eye surgeon who saw my picture on Friday. I am now ready for this date.
- 1 flirtatious cigarette smoking session with M's 75 year old Uncle at the wedding today
- 1 caterwaul at me and a "hey cutie" from several male NC state students leaving Carter Finley after the Sat. game (while I was driving to park at the fair). Obviously they had no clue how old, wrinkly, and generally insecure I am
- 1 scathing reply from me to the 51 year old stalker on MySpace: I said: "You are too old. I don't get involved with men who are closer in age to my father than to me. "
Still have not returned the last two phone calls from HmcH. Every day gets easier. Please keep me busy girls. Even talking to you guys helps me through this.
My therapist says the silence from me is the right thing to do. She had a lot to say this weekend. First, she was proud of my progress. Second, she did say that his poo-pooing of any therapists who are not PhDs was a classic example of his need for "power." She said the fact that not only new men but men from my past who know me well and that are still intersted in me was testament to me being "okay" "fun" "secure" "attractive" "confident" and basically the opposite of all the ways that HmcH was putting me down. She said the smoking comment was quite ridiculous, and un-needed. Just a way for him to put me down and try and create yet another insecurity where there previous wasn't one. Even if he thought it, he shouldn't have said it. We had a good session, and she says she sees me turning the corner even though its going to hurt for a long time.
One bit of bad news. The babysitter cancelled for Sat. Am on the hunt for another...keep your fingers crossed.
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